Compare yourself...

[Alysha]

This is such an interesting read.

10 years ago; I was 14, thought I had a solid group of 7 friends, but I never left the house and the friendships all went downhill for a variety of reasons. Suffered from anxiety and depression, did some stupid shit had about 4 boyfriends all called Jonathan, didn’t like any of them. Used habbo as a way of ‘making friends’

5 years ago; I’d have been 19, in university. Would have come out to my parents, got into a fairly unpleasant relationship for three years. I’d probably have stopped playing habbo between A Levels and 1st year of uni, but I started playing again as a way of keeping in contact with a real life person... who I lived with. Kind of curled up into my own little world, didn’t go out much, hated uni, hated my job. Still suffered from a string of mental illnesses but didn’t get any help. Wasn’t a great time to be honest.

Present; Engaged to a beautiful woman, who brings me out of my shell and encourages me to better myself. We have two little kittens and live in a bungalow; it’s a true lesbian family, which makes me hella happy. Still in a dead end job, but starting my masters in September, with job prospects lined up already afterwards. My whole family knows about me being gay now, including my grandparents, who I was really scared to tell about it, but everyone has been really supportive!

Two years ago, I was in a dark place, but luckily I’ve come out of the other side with a new lease of life, where I aim to enjoy instead of limit myself. In all honesty, I’m proud of myself. It’s cringe af, but that’s where I’m at

[dbgtz]

This is such an interesting read.

10 years ago; I was 14, thought I had a solid group of 7 friends, but I never left the house and the friendships all went downhill for a variety of reasons. Suffered from anxiety and depression, did some stupid shit had about 4 boyfriends all called Jonathan, didn’t like any of them. Used habbo as a way of ‘making friends’

5 years ago; I’d have been 19, in university. Would have come out to my parents, got into a fairly unpleasant relationship for three years. I’d probably have stopped playing habbo between A Levels and 1st year of uni, but I started playing again as a way of keeping in contact with a real life person... who I lived with. Kind of curled up into my own little world, didn’t go out much, hated uni, hated my job. Still suffered from a string of mental illnesses but didn’t get any help. Wasn’t a great time to be honest.

Present; Engaged to a beautiful woman, who brings me out of my shell and encourages me to better myself. We have two little kittens and live in a bungalow; it’s a true lesbian family, which makes me hella happy. Still in a dead end job, but starting my masters in September, with job prospects lined up already afterwards. My whole family knows about me being gay now, including my grandparents, who I was really scared to tell about it, but everyone has been really supportive!

Two years ago, I was in a dark place, but luckily I’ve come out of the other side with a new lease of life, where I aim to enjoy instead of limit myself. In all honesty, I’m proud of myself. It’s cringe af, but that’s where I’m at

what you off to study

[Hannah]

I'm a much better person in myself now, I'd say - in comparison to what I was five years ago. A lot has changed over the last five years of my existence.

Five years ago I was working as a barmaid, waitress and child softplay supervisor at a pub local to me, I was working shifts of 9am - 1am the following morning, I was the skinniest I'd ever been and was passing out left right and centre.

Four years ago, I had got a job in a Foreign Currency Exchange Bureau. I was part time and bored out of my mind. I was earning about £750 a month (I have no idea how I survived, we live within our means I guess).

Three years ago, I'd moved to Foreign Currency, Payday loans, Pawnbroking etc. Kinda like a Cash Converter. It was completely corrupt - I worked in a branch on my own five days a week, bored out of my mind. My salary jumped to 14.5k p/a

Two years ago I moved into Property Management Accounting, I was an assistant and did year end service charge accounts only.

One year ago, I'd become a Service Charge Accountant in London. My salary a fresh 28k. It was extremely stressful as the only competent account person trying to deal with everything from year end accounts to posting and paying invoices, etc.

February this year, I moved jobs to five minutes from where I live, I learned to drive a few months beforehand. I'm now an accounts manager.

Over the five years, I have moved out with a partner, moved back home - been in another relationship, and ended that one not too long ago for how clingy he was. I mean, he was perfect on paper. Roses all the time (even after we broke up, delivered to work)... but he just didn't do it for me.

I bought a DSLR, have just purchased a new computer capable of coping with Lightroom and Photoshop - with plans of doing photography in my spare time for some extra cash.

[MKR&*42]

> IT ALL STARTED WHEN INTERSOCIAL WAS MEAN TO ME IN THE HELP DESK..

Me, mean? Never. @Empired;

Don't think I could explain the past five years of development without turning this into an essay, but certainly the last year of my life has been a series of constant person changes - particularly these past three/four months. University tanked for me in the first year because I ended up with so many emotional problems & genuine alcoholism, and I inevitably failed two modules (one of them because I just didn't go to the exams...) but refused to quit uni because y'know...stubborn and don't like quitting. So I lamentably powered through my resits and I'm 99% confident I passed, but besides that the whole education side of things I spent a lot of time working on the mental health aspect of my life this Summer (some with a therapist) and I honestly find it incredible the person I am now compared to merely 6 months ago. Managed to overcome so many dark thoughts, so many insecurities with my friendships, so much self-critique and doubt, so many mood issues, and honestly I look at myself now and I'm floored at how I overcame so many deep-rooted issues in such a short space of time. There's still work to go, but it's incredible that I no longer spend so much time ruminating over how other people perceive me and quaint stuff like omg do my friends even like me.

I am more at ease socially than I was before. I now a lot eat better than I used to (still far to go!) and seem to be on a path towards vegetarianism, whilst also baking & cooking more in general. I actually make an effort to try and look decent now and actually bother to iron clothes now (pretty much no-one irons here at uni unless it's a smart shirt). I'm looking to start volunteering soon and will probably try to take up some kind of sport as I have an odd yearning to do so. Astonishingly I now have some vague interest in football which was never to be expected in my life, and half-try to follow it (though Bundesliga not EPL). Even smaller things like my music taste have changed quite oddly... I now seem way more interested in trance and house music than anything else. I'm starting to read more again and will try to get through some classical literature... after I get through the other 40 books I have been meaning to read...

Anyway, even comparing myself to like 6 months ago I am astonished at the person I am right now. P.S. if you're reading this go watch BoJack Horseman on Netflix cause it's an incredibly poignant show and hit me with some harsh truths about myself tbh. Right now I am positive I'm the best version of myself that there's ever been, and whilst I do still have some setbacks and many things to improve, I'm proud.

[Alysha]

what you off to study

Law. With an undergrad in film and tv it should be interesting, but I’ve already put loads of work in and I’m not giving up so easily this time

[dbgtz]

> IT ALL STARTED WHEN INTERSOCIAL WAS MEAN TO ME IN THE HELP DESK..

Me, mean? Never. @Empired;

Don't think I could explain the past five years of development without turning this into an essay, but certainly the last year of my life has been a series of constant person changes - particularly these past three/four months. University tanked for me in the first year because I ended up with so many emotional problems & genuine alcoholism, and I inevitably failed two modules (one of them because I just didn't go to the exams...) but refused to quit uni because y'know...stubborn and don't like quitting. So I lamentably powered through my resits and I'm 99% confident I passed, but besides that the whole education side of things I spent a lot of time working on the mental health aspect of my life this Summer (some with a therapist) and I honestly find it incredible the person I am now compared to merely 6 months ago. Managed to overcome so many dark thoughts, so many insecurities with my friendships, so much self-critique and doubt, so many mood issues, and honestly I look at myself now and I'm floored at how I overcame so many deep-rooted issues in such a short space of time. There's still work to go, but it's incredible that I no longer spend so much time ruminating over how other people perceive me and quaint stuff like omg do my friends even like me.

I am more at ease socially than I was before. I now a lot eat better than I used to (still far to go!) and seem to be on a path towards vegetarianism, whilst also baking & cooking more in general. I actually make an effort to try and look decent now and actually bother to iron clothes now (pretty much no-one irons here at uni unless it's a smart shirt). I'm looking to start volunteering soon and will probably try to take up some kind of sport as I have an odd yearning to do so. Astonishingly I now have some vague interest in football which was never to be expected in my life, and half-try to follow it (though Bundesliga not EPL). Even smaller things like my music taste have changed quite oddly... I now seem way more interested in trance and house music than anything else. I'm starting to read more again and will try to get through some classical literature... after I get through the other 40 books I have been meaning to read...

Anyway, even comparing myself to like 6 months ago I am astonished at the person I am right now. P.S. if you're reading this go watch BoJack Horseman on Netflix cause it's an incredibly poignant show and hit me with some harsh truths about myself tbh. Right now I am positive I'm the best version of myself that there's ever been, and whilst I do still have some setbacks and many things to improve, I'm proud.

nice to hear it's all going ok
also +1 for bojack

Law. With an undergrad in film and tv it should be interesting, but I’ve already put loads of work in and I’m not giving up so easily this time

interesting switch, any interesting story to that or just found it and liked it?
good luck with it all anyway, I'm not sure what the scene is like where you want to be based (presumably Wales) but judging by my brothers girlfriends days it seems like very hard work
good money though, only 29 and already solely outright owns a 4 bed detached house in south east england which is mad but maybe it varies depending on the type idk

[Alysha]

interesting switch, any interesting story to that or just found it and liked it?
good luck with it all anyway, I'm not sure what the scene is like where you want to be based (presumably Wales) but judging by my brothers girlfriends days it seems like very hard work
good money though, only 29 and already solely outright owns a 4 bed detached house in south east england which is mad but maybe it varies depending on the type idk

Uh, I guess I just did a lot of work experience based in civil law, which is probably the boring side to most people, but I really enjoyed it. It was just something to keep my brain ticking after all the mundane, gossip riddem retail work I've done for so long. The job offer is in South Wales, doing conveyancing, but I'll more than likely end up in the midlands, so hopefully I can find something there. I don't particularly want to be the person in the courtroom, just behind the scenes type stuff.
That's insane though. If I can achieve anything near that by the time I'm 30, I'll be happy.

Any plans for the future for yourself kiddo?

[dbgtz]

Uh, I guess I just did a lot of work experience based in civil law, which is probably the boring side to most people, but I really enjoyed it. It was just something to keep my brain ticking after all the mundane, gossip riddem retail work I've done for so long. The job offer is in South Wales, doing conveyancing, but I'll more than likely end up in the midlands, so hopefully I can find something there. I don't particularly want to be the person in the courtroom, just behind the scenes type stuff.
That's insane though. If I can achieve anything near that by the time I'm 30, I'll be happy.

Any plans for the future for yourself kiddo?

That sounds like a solid plan

None for me really, don't think that far ahead. My current plan extends as far as staying in my current job until the end of the year. I think once I hit a years experience I'll be able to look for hopefully better and higher ££ jobs though it's all probably going to require me doing a bit more in my free time as I don't think my current job is going to give me a wide array of experience. Nothing concrete though
or maybe I'll just with the euromillions and never bother working again

[Cadigyna]

well years ago like between 2007-2012 I was an outcast a loner, shy, easy target and a victim to bullying. Life was really bad like I did not get along with anyone and my bff had moved to a more popular type school. I didn't get along with anyone including my own family, I was very close to commiting suicide and cutting behind my toes with a knife then my hands etc and bleed to death.

Then in 2011 things started to slowly change a girl in my class somehow knew I needed people and found me a secure group of friends. People would associate them as the anime freaks and musical nerds which in reality their great people. I would start by just listening and slowly things progressed I started talking (badly at times ofc) but despite not having anything in common with them we actually bonded well.

Then In 2012 I knew it was the last year of high school which means it was the perfect time to experiment. I started off by having 7 crushes at once I figured if anything were to suddenly happen I would at least have 6 others to look at. I also broke out of my shell and spoke to one of them (even though they didn't pay attention) I learnt to channel all my emotions and thoughts into drawings I graffiti'd in my diary and all. My aunt became someone who I could also go to for things over the phone and discuss but it was hardly needed and all. Anyways I started to suddenly become this new and powerful person I didn't even realise.

This is how I became powerful for example a year later at university I got targeted as a victim of bullying again but I played it smart. They hid all my items around the room and used their dirty feet to drag my bag to the next row (I could tell they wanted me to move, but I didn't) I then gave a look to the teacher who saw it. I wrote an email to the course leader in a court case form. I named the witness, what happened, the bully etc. and within weeks the bully was kicked out of the course and didn't graduate like I did.
Also I was diagnosed with autism which like epilepsy I've had my entire life, the woman who diagnosed me told me straight out that I should give up my dream job and work behind the scenes for good. I decided to use the diagnosis in a new way I got a note taker in uni to take my notes after, I decided to try new things like studying part time and working my way up like in Australia we have Centrelink so I get $900 per fortnight for 8 hours of work per week of volunteering.

As for now I've learnt to embrace the new me, help others like myself and others with special needs and become like an inspiration to all people who are brave enough to come to me on habbo for help and solve their issues for them within minutes. As for people I no longer care what they think of me if they hate me that is their problem (like my dad's side of the family) they just have to suck It up as I will forever be myself.