Ok, so I feel like a right dry ****e at the moment. Anytime the lads ask me to go out I always feel like I need to make excuses. In the past I loved going to nightclubs & getting wasted but now I just hate it. It costs too much money & I don't want to binge on alcohol as its bad for me, I'm also trying to fix that part of my lifestyle. If I go out and don't drink it'll be stupid, not because I need alcohol to have a good time but when everyone else is drunk and I'm not, I just feel out of place. I told the lads I'd go tonight but only because I ran out of excuses, I don't want to go out, when they asked me to go out a few weeks back, I knew then I didn't want to go out but felt pressured into saying yes as if i had of said no would have just get bombarded with questions and the simple answer is, I don't like drinking anymore and don't want to waste my time standing around other drunk people having a great time.
Ugh I feel really selfish. What should i do its tonight!
/oldmanspeech