I look really really ugly when I cry like all gross and red and blotchy so I refuse to let ppl see me cry. My mum insists on coming and talking to me which I hate bc I can calm myself down on my own but she'll just make me more upset or angry until we argue and then eventually calm down. I hate that because it's such a waste of an afternoon lol and it alwaysss happens even if the reason I'm crying has nothing to do with her.